I got forced to change departments

Right now this new job is absolutely the worst thing that has ever happened to me professionally.  I would prefer that I had been fired rather than them saving face(They are trying to make it look like they aren't eliminating positions in our division.) and moving me to another department.  I can not see anyway how I will not fail. 

 

I feel like I am constantly being kicked in the stomach.  The more time I spend in my "training" which is really more like a 4 day long cram session in which I am supposed to learn all of this groups chemistry and be ready to get started within the next week or so the worse I feel.

 

I really just want to pack my shit and walk out the door.  I wouldn't even give them the courtesy of the a middle finger.

I have never felt this worthless and stupid in my whole life.  The day I was told I would not be allowed to continue toward a PhD at Notre Dame was better than this.  At least, that was somewhat of my own doing.  I had a say in the work up to that point which led to ND's decision.  I had no say in this.  I would have never asked for this job. 

 

Well, I'm off to another cram session so I can feel even stupider than I do now.